Hardest thing for me...

Being a Stay-at-Home Mom is really hard some days. People that haven't ever done it, don't judge. I used to think Stay-at-Home Mom's had it made...getting to do whatever they want, whenever they want. Now that I am home, that is so not the case. It's hard work. I'm the Mom 24-7. You're always ON. I look forward to nap time just to have some alone time. I look forward to bedtime so I can read without being interrupted. It sounds so petty, but...just sayin! I can't imagine if my baby had real issues, I guess God does give us what we can handle, but some days I don't 'handle' very well. This is the hardest job I've ever had. I have to be the decision maker, the chef, the reader, the bather, the jump outta bed in the middle of the night to a crying babyer...So many hats, and I'm not that kind of person. I'm not wired to wear alot of hats and I think that is why I get so frustrated so easily. I always liked jobs where I was behind-the-scenes. I like being told what to do, how to do it and when it needs to be done. It's just me. I would NEVER be a manager, a boss, a leader, a look at me I'm running for Mommy of the Year...I was once a supervisor of a small department and I hated every minute of it. I don't want to tell people what to do, I don't like confrontation and I really don't like people looking to me for the answers. I did a really good job at faking supervising. I had answers, they were good ones, but as soon as I knew the eyes were on me, my palms would start to sweat! I got good at hiding being nervous. I guess that's what I'm doing with being a Mom, I'm getting good at figuring it out...I hate attention too and OH BOY no one told me babies bring on alot of attention, from people you know and from strangers! I sometimes walk through the grocery store with my head a little down or really focused forward so STRANGERS won't wanna talk and TOUCH my baby and ask me a bunch of questions about her...why would they care anyway? I don't know them, I don't care about them, is that wrong? My baby and me are fine just the two of us doing our shopping...can I put a sticker on my shirt that says I don't talk and my baby hates you?? That would be too much wouldn't it? But you get what I mean, yes? Mommying is hard work, maybe not for everyone, but for me it's the hardest thing I've ever done because I am the boss! HMMM