Making Memories

Christmas always makes me kinda sad...not sad...melancholy...I think alot...

Maybe now that Maggie will be all about Christmas, it'll be more fun...
I can't wait to see her ripping into her presents...
We are making memories and our 'own' traditions...I've stole some from my childhood of course, cuz that's what I remember but it'll be fun to make our own...I want memories and traditions Maggie will remember when she is 32 years old like I am now...I want her to see pictures of herself opening her presents on Christmas morning all sleepy eyed and excited...I want her to put up her tree later on and think about MomMom and Dadda when she is going through her ornaments from the past 30 some years...I hope she laughs and cries(just a little)...I hope she rolls her eyes and laughs when she thinks of some dumb doily sweatshirt she got when she was 10 from her Grandparents...
I still remember, for real, seeing Santa too...there was a light up santa in his sleigh on the way to xmas eve at my grandpa's house in someone's front yard and when we left later that night, he was gone...for years, i knew i'd seen santa...i still wonder, even if it's corny, why would it have been gone? why would the people move it? basically, it HAD to have been Santa because no other explanation makes any sense, right?!:)Jenna and I had a very good Santa, we had no reason to not believe!!! My 4th grade teacher actually ruined it for me...he told us that there was no Santa...I was in shock...I guess my friends already knew there wasn't a Santa...I felt dumb for being so old and not knowing...part of me still believes in the idea of Santa, so there Mr. Peterich, you didn't ruin my WHOLE life, buttface! :)